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12 December 2009 @ 03:50 am
Its about that time  
Hello girls.

I am new to livejournal and this community.

I need someone. I have been ana for 9 years, and recently, mia. I need someone who understands me. The only one i had just died. There is no goal weight or ultimate goal weight, i have recently realized it will never be enough. I am consumed by this and just need someone who understands what it feels like.

i hope i am able to find what i need.

"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid." John 14:27
Vintage Violetlovelylilaclady on December 13th, 2009 11:10 pm (UTC)
Welcome to LJ and the community! I can't say I understand you completely because I've only had my ED for almost a year and a half. I was anorexic for several months, then for some unknown reason I started eating again but basically in binges. I still binge and I hate it. It's disgusting and awful. I haven't weighed myself in ages and I don't want to know what I weigh anymore. LIke you, it will never be enough for me. It seems stupid for me to have a goal weight. Now I just want control over food. That's the most important thing for me.

I hope you find what you're looking for also. And I just wanted to say that I really appreciate the quote from Scripture you posted. I've lost touch with my faith since being with ED and I'm trying to get back to having a relationship with Christ again. I know now that I just can't do this alone. Take care and God Bless! :)